Tuesday, August 16, 2005
blank page empire
there must be something beyond the past
I guess I'm just afraid to think about it
sad songs and sunsets are always inspiring
sad songs and sunsets
sad songs
sad
I'm next in line to trip over the turnstile
the train station is enormous
it's magic how anyone can find there way
suits and briefcases, ipods and skateboards
restaurants and beggers, artists and wine
the train is underground, bohemian
Jack always taunts Barbossa with an apple
all for a little piece of the Pearl I suppose
I guess I'm just afraid to think about it
sad songs and sunsets are always inspiring
sad songs and sunsets
sad songs
sad
I'm next in line to trip over the turnstile
the train station is enormous
it's magic how anyone can find there way
suits and briefcases, ipods and skateboards
restaurants and beggers, artists and wine
the train is underground, bohemian
Jack always taunts Barbossa with an apple
all for a little piece of the Pearl I suppose
Monday, August 15, 2005
No point in mentioning these bats, I thought. Poor bastard will see them soon enough.
some friends of mine came down from detroit this weekend. Twas a lot of fun. :) I'm glad to know that I have friends. I really was unsure of how to entertain them. My string is only apparent to the females in my life, and of course a few lonely souls begging me to hook them up with somethone sexy. Anyway, I appreciate visitors.
I ate some lunch today. The highlight of my day actually. Then I enjoyed some smoke with a good friend. I went to the restroom to freshen up a bit after lunch. I'm unsure about what happened on the other side of the door, but when I returned the room was just a little darker. So I decided to play something introspective. Winding down into my pitiful existence was rather comfortable. My misery. If I've got nothing else, I've got my misery. But a facade can still make even the most destitute place seem classy, elegant, refined, or whatever. I opened my eyes again, only to notice the room was slightly darker than before. Funny how I never noticed until today though. God is playing his cruel tricks on me once again.
Here I am now, with some rainy day music and that awful feeling one gets from overeating. I hate playing hookey with my debtors.
I ate some lunch today. The highlight of my day actually. Then I enjoyed some smoke with a good friend. I went to the restroom to freshen up a bit after lunch. I'm unsure about what happened on the other side of the door, but when I returned the room was just a little darker. So I decided to play something introspective. Winding down into my pitiful existence was rather comfortable. My misery. If I've got nothing else, I've got my misery. But a facade can still make even the most destitute place seem classy, elegant, refined, or whatever. I opened my eyes again, only to notice the room was slightly darker than before. Funny how I never noticed until today though. God is playing his cruel tricks on me once again.
Here I am now, with some rainy day music and that awful feeling one gets from overeating. I hate playing hookey with my debtors.
Monday, August 01, 2005
Just when you think something good will happen..
I need to get away. Permanently. I keep thinking that my lease is going to expire in October. Freedom. Sometimes it takes losing everything to realize that there was never anything to begin with. If I just left without telling a soul.. and completely changed myself where ever I end up.. the possibilities are endless. Fuck it. Fuck her. and her too. and all the people that think they know what it is that I need. I know more than anything that it's not sex. It's not drugs. It's not your fucking church. It's just not. In the grand scheme of things.. there's nothing of any real importance. Just live life. smile. be happy. the rest is taken care of.
